Category: Libri & Verbis

  • A Covid Diary: Panama

    A Covid Diary: Panama

    “It feels like a dystopia movie . . . “
    In Panama the virus rages on. An excerpt from a very personal account.

    I wake at 4:30 AM to drink water and walk to the window. It’s dark outside and the faint street lamps illuminate the neighborhood. The only sounds are those of small birds in the trees that shelter them. I take a deep breath and go back to bed before another day of lockdown begins.

    It is hard to imagine that three months have passed and how much all our lives have changed. Back in mid-February with my partner and our widowed mothers, we boarded a Caribbean cruise for a week of enjoyment. Later, on our own, we embarked on a 1000-kilometer road trip around the countryside of our tropical country, Panama. 

    There was news of a strange epidemic, far away in China, where thousands were falling to a mysterious illness. But no one was worried here, after all we had already experienced epidemics before—dengue, zika—and made it through okay.

    And then things started to escalate. There was the unexplainable sudden death of a school director in the capital city; his co-workers following him to hospital, some in grave condition. The government tried to downplay it. The school board muttered but there was no way to deny it, COVID was among us! Quickly the number of infected people started to climb in Panama city. 

    Still travelling we decided to prolong our stay in the countryside, our evening’s backstopped by a nightly press conference tallying positive cases, hospitalized people, the mounting death toll.

    In the days in between we took a daylong road trip across plains and mountains to a remote surfer’s beach. While there the government announced plans for stricter measures, but they would still leave the airports open so more infected people could arrive from the USA, Spain, and Italy.

    We were supposed to spend a few days in a beach resort. Now a virus borne from across the Pacific severed our long-awaited holidays. A curfew was in force and we could no longer walk the streets. In our capital the situation as getting progressively worse; and while there were a few reported cases in the countryside, there were none recorded in the province where we were staying. 

    The holidays were over. Being independent I had no safe way to return to our home in the city. Yes, sometimes government takes half-baked measures without thinking; and yet it took weeks before they decided to close the airport. We spent a whole month in the countryside, afraid to come to the city. 

    Now I find myself here, in our cozy apartment but unable to go outside and enjoy the sun. All social and economic activities have come to a halt. As an independent I am only allowed to be out and about for 2 hours, twice a week, within a specific time slot. While a ritual follows the rare excursion to the outside world where the ‘virus’ resides. Leaving shoes outside and spraying them with chloride, washing your hands feverishly before touching anything and then stripping away your clothes before taking a shower. 

    Life in Panama has taken on the feel of a dystopia movie; a time and place where simple acts—coughing, touching, laughing—can have grave consequences.

    Our lives will be different from now on. Nothing will be the same again. 

  • A Covid Perspective: Hong Kong

    A Covid Perspective: Hong Kong

    Ms. J, from Hong Kong, reflects on how the ‘virus’ has changed her city home, sometimes for the better.

    Never would I have thought that at the start of 2020, a “World War Z” feeling would spread across the world! Without blood, without running for your life, without Brad Pitt, but you know it is all around you! The anxiety, the panic, the restrictions, constant reminders of self-protection and the dramatic death rate around the world. Getting on the train you could suddenly be in life threatening danger! The fear of death was never so close!

    People in HK are considered lucky. We were one of the first infected cities, in early 2020, but never suffered a lockdown. Local government established various measures to fight against the virus but the people in HK are, still today, free to go around.

    Everyone is conscious of wearing mask and sanitising hands whenever they can. There was a wave of panic buying of masks, sanitiser, toilet rolls, tissue paper, any type of noodles and rice, bread, canned food. Empty shelves in supermarkets and the lack of daily masks was the talk of town for many weeks. But then it stablised pretty quickly.

    With our SARS experience in 2003, HK people knew when to wear a mask in public. It is perceived to be a responsible and life-saving act for yourself and for others. It is impressive that every Hong Konger is so aligned with this belief that you will not see anyone without a mask in public, even with the currently hot weather and 35 degree temperatures. 

    But we do question, will this become our way of life?!

    Nevertheless, westerners living in HK did not wear masks in the early stages of the pandemic. We cannot be sure whether they thought we were over-reacting or that the virus only targeted Asians. At that point, there were minimal cases in the western world. But since the outbreak started in Europe and North America, the whole cycle of panic buying, empty shelves in shops and the mask wearing debate has happened in these places too, and so the westerners started to understand why we do what we do, and began wearing masks.

    Cultural differences disappeared and we all knew that we were in this together.

    The combined effort of government measures and people’s behavior seems to have paid off. The number of confirmed cases and deaths in HK has remained low.

    Meanwhile, with the pandemic induced closure of factory operations in China, the ever-polluted air quality in HK has improved. Even the ocean is clearer. People are more alert about health and diet, bonding more with their loved ones, there is more home cooking fun, more efforts to see nature – everyone in HK seems to be at ease with the pandemic as long as we all behave! Amazing to see such a pleasant outcome from such a difficult situation. Would this ever have happened if there were no pandemic?

    I am from HK, living in HK with my British husband and we run a little hat shop selling vintage men’s hats.

    Dr. Howl – A GREAT hat shop it is too!

  • Lockdown Virus Blues

    Lockdown Virus Blues

    Siem Reap’s Peter Olszewski offers a satirical take on the latest Covid news.

    Commenting on the most recent development  in our anthropocene epoch,  John said that he read somewhere that Bill Gates was behind the Covid virus, because he was  developing a vaccine so he could dominate the globe financially – although he already does dominate the globe financially John added –  noting that he read  the bit about Gates and the vaccine somewhere and then adding that he doesn’t believe anything he reads anywhere anymore whereas Michael said that he read  that high  temperatures can keep the virus at bay although that information is being stifled by global leaders living in cold temperatures and/or Donald Trump,  or at least that’s what he read somewhere although Michael adds that he doesn’t believe anything he reads anywhere anymore, while Caroline, well Caroline is convinced Trump has a lot to answer for and that the virus  is a dire warning about the catastrophic dangers of environmental pollution caused by radiofrequency radiation and electromagnetic fields as evidenced  by  5G which is now being actively rolled out in many cities around the world  and which hijacks  your sweat duct antennae via  pulsed waves far more damaging than continuous wave radiation  and in fact  5G is a weapons system disguised as a consumer convenience, or so she read, and Michelle butted in saying she read that someone from WHO – almost certainly a woman – said that Jacinda Ardern should be running America, even though she – Jacinda Ardern – told CNN’s Christiane Amanpour that she didn’t understand America and meanwhile Donald Trump,  furious that Ardern has trumped him by having far better virus numbers, said that he made Ardern up and if she’s not careful he’ll turn her into a sock puppet,  with Bob then bobbing up saying how it’s all just a chance to reset humanity, despite the proliferation of photo-shopped pics of swans and dolphins on the Thames or the Ganges,  and despite statements that are false at a quantum or supposed  non dual level and despite the kick-in of the entropic chaos factor when suddenly Sandrine interrupted screaming WTF would everybody just shut up about the  stupid covid virus thingy or whatever it’s called and get on with it and leave her alone because she’s sick of hearing about it and she certainly no longer reads about  it because she doesn’t believe anything she reads anywhere anymore.

    You know what they say. You wouldn’t read about it.

  • An Unbearable Likeness for a Nature Cam

    An Unbearable Likeness for a Nature Cam

    ‘Hope is a thing with feathers’. Dr. Howl shares parallel worlds in his latest lockdown piece

    The nest is empty now, its wide platform of sticks and leaves vacant, bare of feather, talon and beak; around the sides and in the middle a few bones remain, the discarded lives of mice, moles, something larger, growing brittle and white under the mid-summer sun. 

    I started following the Decorah Eagle’s nature cam in early March – remember life back then? A time of Covid fears—uncertainty growing like the numbers infected—businesses shuttered, travel plans cancelled, the world moving inward, the future unknown. 

    In these anxious times finding the website was a ‘beautiful discovery’, its peep into the live world of two nesting American bald-eagles offering up respite from my outside world. There, on the centre of my computer screen, sat a tall and stoic eagle, attentive and alive, sheltering three eggs beneath its puffed out chest. Something solid and firm, with focus and a clear mission. Too easily I was hooked. 

    Over the next three months, from March to now, my life has followed two parallel paths. One a pandemic journey, the virus blasting through Italy and Spain—in Washington, the ‘powers that be’ denying and gargling blench— New Zealand in lockdown, Britain differing. The other an eyrir-world with two clear tasks at hand: hatching and raising three eagle chicks.

    The first few weeks were the time of the eggs, the eagle pair taking it in turn to keep the three white ovals warm and dry. Back in my Covid world I was storing up food, converting currency into small nominations, and working with a district governor to setup an emergency clinic, the pair of us pondering where we might store the bodies. 

    In mid-April the eggs gave way to chicks, the cam showing three balls of fragile and sleepy fluff one mid-week morning, the hatchlings looking small and naked amongst the sticks and detritus of their tree-top home. 

    In my parallel world Khmer friends, jobless for two months, wondered how they would repay their micro-loans whilst, across at the temples where their ancestors once stood, the grounds were eerily quiet – Angkor reclaimed by a spirit of stillness. 

    By late May the three eaglets—they had all survived—were looking much stronger; acting like preening teenagers, tired of the nest and wanting to break free; but novices to flight, unable to do so. 

    Until last week that is when, after a few days away I clicked on the eagle site wondering, as the Mac wheel spun around, what I might find. The answer: nothing! Not a bird in sight. My eagles had flown.

    My feelings? Firstly sad and disappointed but then something else, a measure of relief and joy that the eggs of March had endured; and that the seeds they once held were now soaring over the plains and hills of Iowa, terrorizing rodents, rabbits, voles and whatever else befalls their keen raptor eye. 

    Meanwhile back in my native Aotearoa June has brought a different relief; a semblance of normality returning inside the nation’s borders. People are standing next to each other and shaking hands without fear; touching, hugging and kissing (not too much of the latter, it is still a country of emotional restraint). 

    This weekend rugby will return to the nation’s stadiums; crowds once again assembling before stages of grass and dramas of strength and agility. I imagine that the grounds will be full, each game—in a very Kiwi way—a celebration of having passed through the Covid eye. 

    And just this once I wish I could be there. 

    So in this moment I feel happiness and gladness for my birth place and the eagles of Decorah. And to those here to read this, I am glad for you too. 

    Kia haumaru

    Dr. Howl

  • Sex (less) in the City

    Sex (less) in the City

    Joss McDonald ruminates on the meaning of ‘love’ in these discombobulated times.

    Awww, Love in the Time of Cholera  Opps, I mean Love in the Time of Coronavirus. Okay, really what the fcuk am I saying? There ain’t no love happening right now for a lot of us. Unless, of course, you were one of those lucky single people who found a mate on Tinder or Bumble by way of an original pick-up line.

    Maybe it was a get right to the point one such as “Come quarantine with me?” Or the more cheesy “The only thing not quarantined is my heart when I look at you?” Or a naughty one “The Coronavirus might have shut everything down, but I’m still open for business?” Perhaps a practical one, “I’ve got plenty of TP and food- want to bunker down with me?” Or the so bad it’s good line “If the Coronavirus doesn’t take you out, can I?”.

    There’s amazingly been quite a bit of success with lines like these, as well as plenty of new-ish relationships where people suddenly shack up together. So much so, The Edge radio station I stream from New Zealand has featured a few time slots about this new cohabitation phenomenon. Here’s the thing – you either move in together, or you won’t see each other for at least a month, maybe two, or really who even knows?! How could anyone say no to moving in with someone they’ve been dating only a few months when the lust and passion are at it’s height?

    Or, maybe you’re like me, and live in a tourist town devoid of any but approximately three, three tourists right now! Oh, and most of the “eligible” single expats have left too. Which means that, yes, you guessed it, we will not, for the forseeable future, be having any sex in the city.

    I know for some of you, it won’t bother you too much. Alright, I’ll survive too, but there’s nothing like an impending warning to bunker down for an undisclosed amount of time to make you really wish you’d found your Mr. Right — or at least a Mr. Right Now.

    There’s still one or two guys coming up on Tinder here a day and I think a few over. I recently matched and have exchanged messages with two who have been keen to meet. Sure, we can do a “social- distancing” date over coffee. I mean, how does that work?!

    Are we supposed to sit at separate tables across the room from each other? Maybe we could write our questions on notes of paper, like in primary school, and get them passed back and forth by the wait staff- sanitizing our hands in between? Or, bring personal-sized white boards and markers to ask our questions on? Shit, but then I’d need to wear my glasses to see that distance! Ughh!

    At what point do we not have to sit six feet or six meters, or whatever the new safety standard is, apart? Maybe every date we can lessen it by one foot, and if we have six successful dates, we can now finally kiss? And eventually (cover you ears mum and dad) have . . . . !

    What if you don’t live alone? As whoever lives in your house is part of your “bubble”, that person will now have to pass the bubble test! What would the bubble test consist of?

    1. Can cook?- You’d definitely want someone who can contribute to that. 
    2. Knows how to use a mop/broom/vacuum?
    3. Has good handyman skills? 
    4. Is eager to play board/card/drinking games with your family or flatmates?
    5. Isn’t a screamer! Yes, you might want to be having great sex, but nobody, and I mean nobody in your house wants to hear you! — Especially if they are single! *Note to self: Ask if they are a screamer in the above social-distancing date questionnaire.

    Sorry, I’m getting ahead of myself here, as unfortunately, I have no prospective Mr. Rights in sight. Okay, yes, I have had two guys ask to meet, and so far I’ve met one. He was nice, good at conversation, but there wasn’t any spark.

    Now, more than ever, I feel like there’s huge pressure on the date for it to be “all or nothing”. There’s got to be that almost instant chemistry and connection, because there isn’t time for it to build. However, just because we’re both not able to leave the country and there is an impending lockdown, doesn’t mean it’s automatically “Love during Coronavirus”. So, as they say, next!

    I still have one more guy I could meet, as we’re not in a state of emergency lockdown here, yet. I’m not holding out a lot of hope, however, as my gut feeling is telling me he’s not my type – although he loves dogs, and has already said he wants to quarantine at mine because I have one.

    Anyway, it’s okay, because I’d rather quarantine alone, then with the wrong guy out of desperation. Just in case, I’m prepared  if not, well there’s always Netflix. What better time for a Sex in the City binge-watching marathon, than for the next few weeks?

    Samantha my girl, I’m coming for ya!


    Joss McDonald is a resident and wordster from Siem Reap, Cambodia.
    For more Joss click here.
    Her relationship status remains unknown.

  • Lockdown fantasy: Phnom Penh Au Revoir

    Lockdown fantasy: Phnom Penh Au Revoir

    Oliver Wainwright, The Guardian, shares his lockdown fantasy: “I wish I was back in the bustling, mind-blowing beauty of Phnom Penh”

    Hovering like a banana-coloured flying saucer above the dusty, congested streets of scooters and cyclo taxis, the central market of Phnom is a remarkable thing. Its enormous concrete dome rises in sharply serrated steps, perforated with screens of chevron tiles, above four long streamlined arms that stretch out like the wings of a benevolent mothership, sheltering the chaotic labyrinth of market stalls below. Built in the 1930s, as a futuristic fusion of French art deco and Khmer temple motifs, it featured the second largest concrete dome in the world at the time (trumped only by the Pantheon in Rome), a fitting symbol of the Cambodian capital’s status as the “Pearl of Asia”.

    I didn’t have high hopes for Phnom Penh when I arrived there on a backpacking trip in 2003, after a few days exploring the jungle temple complex of Angkor Wat and the floating villages of Tonle Sap  I had been warned to get out of the Cambodian capital as quickly as possible and head for the coast. Almost entirely emptied of its population by the genocidal Khmer Rouge regime in the 1970s, the city was now bouncing back as an unplanned jumble, with French colonial buildings left to rot as new development expanded outwards in an unbridled sprawl.

    Yet Phnom Penh had a magnetic charm in its frenzied muddle, with dense streets of Chinese shophouses jostling for position with crumbling French mansions and heroic 1960s experiments in the New Khmer architecture of post-independence Cambodia. After interminable weeks of lockdown, it is exactly the kind of frenetic urban melee I’m longing for, to be lost in the bustle of crowds and wander for hours with no purpose other than to discover what lies around the next corner.

    Exploring a new city is a luxury most of us won’t have for a while, but in the meantime you can indulge your wanderlust with an architectural guidebook from Berlin-based publishers Dom. Since 2005, the architect-run firm has been producing illuminating titles on some of the world’s lesser-trodden architectural hotspots, from Astana to Pyongyang, Wrocław to Yerevan – and even the moon. Phnom Penh is a timely addition, a place whose architectural wonders from all eras have been increasingly under threat from a tidal wave of foreign investment, with no standardised building code nor binding zoning rules in place to guide the influx.

    The origin myth of Phnom Penh describes how a wealthy widow, named Grandmother Penh, found four bronze Buddha statues in a hollow tree in the river by her house, and erected a small shrine on an artificial hill (“phnom” in Khmer) to protect them. Wat Phnom still stands there, progressively enlarged and gilded over the centuries by generations of kings, its hill raised by tonnes of soil excavated from where the central market now stands.

    The temple’s white conical stupa rises above a cityscape that is mostly the result of French beaux-arts planning, its network of broad boulevards and public parks laid out from the 1870s onwards when Cambodia became a French protectorate. Under Parisian control until 1953, the city developed into a supremely elegant place, its tree-lined streets flanked by creamy stucco piles and ornate neo-Khmer fantasies such as the Royal Palace and the National Museum, along with art deco wonders including the central market.

    But the period that is enjoying renewed interest, overlooked until recently and still under threat, is the daring post-independence work of the 60s. It was an optimistic time of modernisation and bold infrastructure projects under Norodom Sihanouk, the eccentric king who became the first prime minster of the independent state. Proclaiming a new era of “royal Buddhist socialism” (which had very little to do with socialism and a lot to do with monarchic nationalism) Sihanouk embarked on an ambitious programme of public works, building schools, factories, sports facilities and cultural centres along with a deep sea port and expanded airport. Chief form-giver to much of this was Vann Molyvann, a young architect who had studied in Paris and brought a fresh new approach, combining international modernist principles with a deep appreciation of Khmer culture and an understanding of the local climate.

     “We could not simply repeat things as they were once done in Europe,” said Vann, in an interview later in life. “We had to think of new ideas, with a Cambodian perspective.” It was an uphill struggle. “When I first came back to Cambodia,” he recalled, “no one knew what an architect was.”

    He soon showed them. His first building was the expressive Chaktomuk conference hall, which still stands on the banks of the river like the leaf of a gigantic fan palm. Its zig-zag roof expands outwards in a broad arc, enclosing the fan-shaped hall and presenting the street with a curved frontage like an ornamental tiara. Next came the National Sports Complex(proudly known as the Olympic Stadium, despite Cambodia having never hosted the Olympic Games), a sublime essay in concrete construction, with four cantilevered waffle-slab roofs each supported by a single column – a feat managed with the help of Le Corbusier’s engineer, Vladimir Bodiansky. A structure as archaic as it is monumental, it has allusions to the temples of Angkor with its axial layout and quadripartite divisions, as well as clever passive environmental techniques, using moats to encourage ventilation and cooling, way ahead of its time.

    Vann deployed similar principles at the Royal University campus, where his former teacher training college stands as a masterpiece of the New Khmer spirit. A roof of honeycomb tubes hangs above an open loggia where windows are set back behind deep concrete shading fins; brick panels appear to float above a bridge flanked by naga (the divine half-serpent creatures of Hindu mythology), leading to elevated causeways that snake their way around the lush green campus above a series of cooling ponds.

    Tapering concrete columns ring a circular library, modelled on a typical Cambodian farmer’s straw hat, while a series of lecture halls are lined up along the side of a bridge pathway like chubby animals at a drinking trough. While the city’s new shopping malls are often chilled to arctic temperatures by energy-guzzling air conditioning, the rooms of the college are pleasantly cool without any mechanical systems, thanks to Vann’s climate-sensitive designs. “Cambodia is a society of half-earth, half-water,” the architect said. “Cities should not be built by landfill but by incorporating water into their design.”

    Sadly these are principles that seem to have been all but abandoned. In 2000, a Taiwanese investment company signed a contract to renovate the stadium in exchange for building on the land around it; the company proceeded to fill up the moats with offices and shops, destroying the hydraulic cooling system in the process. The surrounding land has since been sold for development, leading to a rash of high-rise blocks that now fringe the grounds.

    As the guidebook’s authors lament, the last decade has seen unprecedented growth, with destructive consequences. Following recovery from the 2008 financial crisis, Phnom Penh has become a real-estate hotspot for Chinese and South Korean investors looking to buy property without the tedious regulations or instability affecting most neighbouring countries in the region. Gated communities, or “borey”, have spread like a fungus, occupying huge plots of land without any connecting streets, creating a landscape of fenced-off islands and increasing congestion.

    Mirrored glass shafts have sprouted a stone’s throw from Wat Phnom, including Terry Farrell’s grotesquely clumsy Vattanac Capital tower, apparently designed to look like the arched back of a dragon, “poised to leap into a new era of prosperity”. With a high-end shopping mall aimed at the country’s ultra-rich elite of business tycoons and MPs, known as “excellencies”, it is an empty symbol of a place still mired in kleptocracy.

    Local architect Pen Sereypagna, director of the Vann Molyvann Project, an initiative to document Vann’s surviving works, is frank: “The development [of Phnom Penh] is based more on private interests than on the interests of the common good,” he says, in an interview in Dom’s guidebook. “There is a lack of public infrastructure and poor communities are being driven out of the city in the name of beautification.”

    Documenting more than 140 buildings in detail, often for the first time – from precious religious sites to everyday apartment complexes – this new book not only provides a comprehensive guide, but makes a powerful argument to preserve the richly layered urban fabric, much of which now stands in the line of fire.

    You can read the original article, including pictures, by clicking Josh Wainwright

  • Words of Lockdown Wisdom, from Someone who Has Been There Before . . .

    Words of Lockdown Wisdom, from Someone who Has Been There Before . . .

    Some words for timely reflection brought to you by Isabell Sinclair-Irwin. Lake Hawea, Otago, New Zealand

    I have survived two lockdowns and two pandemics. So far.

    The first pandemic arrived in New Zealand during the summer holidays of 1947-48.  I was 9 years old.

    The virus was called Infantile Paralysis. It mainly affected children, could lead to irreversible paralysis and up to 10% of infected children died when breathing muscles became immobilised. 

    Today we call that nasty little virus Polio.

    When the virus cut loose in New Zealand, suddenly everything and everyone beyond our farm gate was treated as infected and could not come in.  

    My parents were terrified I would catch Infantile Paralysis because I had been a ‘sickly child’. By age 9 I’d already had pneumonia, double pneumonia (whatever that was – all I remember was either mum or dad watching over me 24 hours a day in my bedroom to keep me alive, and me feeling like I was on fire), English measles, German measles and whooping cough. 

    No antibiotics in those days only revolting sulphur tablets. And homemade soap.

    The homemade soap mum made – with carbolic acid in it I think – became double strength and almost took the skin off your hands.

    Towards the end of the summer school holidays the Government decided schools would not open at the beginning of the school year. 

    Every kid in New Zealand became a pupil of the Correspondence School.  At that time kids living in remote areas such as high-country sheep stations or lighthouses were pupils of the Correspondence School and received their lessons delivered in mail drops.

    For 8 weeks at the end of summer 1947-48 my lessons arrived in large brown paper packages delivered to our mailbox by the rural delivery ‘mailman’.  Worksheets for English, maths, social studies and nature studies. Handwriting exercises, spelling lists, school journals, sometimes a library book, coloured pencils, pastel crayons and art paper (I loved the sticky coloured paper).

    I was so excited when the package arrived in our mailbox each week.  I could not wait to read what the teachers had said about my previous week’s work and get into the new material.  I worked so hard and enthusiastically that my weeks work was completed in two days and then my mother tried to think of things to entertain me.  Being a girl in the 1940s activities for me were supposed to be knitting and baking. But I wanted to be outside.  

    There was plenty of space.  

    I was a farmer’s daughter.

    Mum had a much harder time motivating my brother. He was 3 years younger than me and much preferred being out on the farm, a preference that has lasted until this day.

    This was life for me for 8 weeks before schools reopened, and the school bus arrived at our mailbox to pick us up.

    I was reluctant to go back to school.  I much preferred to pace my own learning and not having to go at the speed of others or be constrained by school bells.

    My family was lucky because my brother and I stayed healthy.  I did not end up in hospital like the pictures we saw of kids living inside a metal lung that looked like water tank tipped on its side. I did not lose the use of an arm or leg and have to wear a leather sling or metal callipers like the 4-5 kids at my school that got Polio.

    My parents, who were so protective, had got me through my first pandemic. 

    ——————-

    As we all know, my second pandemic arrived in NZ at the end of the summer of 2019-2020.  I am 82 years old.

    This nasty little virus has a much more scientific sounding name than Infantile Paralysis. This time it mainly affects the elderly. If we had given it a common name perhaps it would have been Mature Deadness.

    When this virus tried to cut loose, suddenly everything and everyone beyond our garden gate was treated as infected and could not come in. 

    This time it is me not my parents that are terrified I will catch the virus. And just like before there is no cure but this time instead of caustic homemade soap there is hand sanitiser with aloe vera.

    Just like the first time around, the Government decided schools would close but this time it is my granddaughters doing school by ‘correspondence’, while I am outside doing gardening like my father once did.

    My son tells me the girls work hard and enthusiastically and get their work completed early. They must get this love of schoolwork from their mother, or me, they certainly do not get it from him. My granddaughters also cannot wait to read what the teachers have posted about their work – posted online not in a letter. They too were reluctant to go back to school.  

    By some quirk of fate I have been the vulnerable group for both pandemics in my lifetime: one at the beginning of my life that affected children and one towards the end affecting the elderly. 

    My family has been lucky again this time as we all stayed healthy. My government, and all those people younger than me who are sacrificing so much, have been so protective they have got me through my second pandemic. So far.

  • ‘Bag times at the Blue Parrot’

    ‘Bag times at the Blue Parrot’

    Today’s lockdown piece is a brief tale of pandemic fiction, by Tom Vater. 

    Deconfinement: They’d barricaded themselves in the Blue Parrot Restaurant. Neil, Brian, Amber and Eric. Long out of masks, the four friends could no longer go outside. There were too many infected. But they were starving. 

    No one would come and save them. The shortwave radio on the cash counter told them as much, perched next to a porcelain ashtray from Venice that featured the restaurant’s owner’s face. Guido. Guido was dead. He’d become infected weeks ago. Brian and Neil had killed him with saucepan lids and rolled him out of the Blue Parrot Restaurant.  

    In their defense, they’d been following government advice. Kill the infected. There was no vaccine. Anyone catching the virus would stop eating and keep spreading until they collapsed. If they collapsed. The authorities were overwhelmed. Business had long been shuttered. The media had collapsed. The Internet was gone. The Blue Parrot had been the center of the universe these past six weeks. At first, the food had been excellent. Then it had begun to run out. 

    Amber emerged from the freezer triumphantly, a large frozen bag of something in her hands. 

    “I found something.”

    The others looked at her doubtfully. They’d been through that freezer. They’d scratched even the moldy packet of durian ice cream off the side and devoured it. Brian, Neil, Eric and Amber looked at each other. Brian was the first to speak.

    “That freezer was bone empty yesterday. Someone’s put that bag in there. We had a deal. We’re friends. We agreed to stick it out together to the end. But someone’s broken the deal.”

    Amber looked crestfallen. Eric had gone pale. Neil lit a cigarette. 

    “Isn’t that your last one?”

    “As you said, Brian, we had a deal.”

    Eric stepped to the radio and turned it up. 

    “The Ministry of Health advises all non-infected citizens to stay indoors and wear their government issued masks. Our air force will drop an aerosol campaign on the city this evening at 6pm, in fifteen minutes. There will be a bright flash of light. Do not venture outside for at least two hours.”

    The announcement gave way to static. 

    Eric turned to Amber,

    “What’s in the bag?”

    “Someone fucking cheated,” Neil interjected again. “Guys, we promised each other to survive together, keeping each other’s backs. Someone’s been eating and the rest of us have been starving.”

    “What’s in the bag? Open the bag,” Eric repeated. 

    Amber stepped up to the largest table, opened the bag and poured its contents on the shiny wood surface. She threw up almost immediately. Eric, Brian and Neil shrunk back as one. Perhaps not quite as one. But they all shrunk back. Amber was crying. No one said a thing. They’d promised to share. They’d also promised to keep their humanity. But one of them had failed. 

    Neil shook his head, disgusted or broken, and took a few steps towards the door. He looked at his watch and grinned sadly. Then he shrugged and raised his hand and turned. 

    “See you guys.”

    “No,” the others all shouted. He hesitated, then shrugged again, a gesture his friends knew so well. A gesture they loved as much as they loved anything about one another. 

    “Well, every cloud has got a silver lining,” he said and stepped out into the light. 

  • Angkor Coronavirus Diaries

    Angkor Coronavirus Diaries

    Lisa Arensen is riding out the coronavirus in Siem Reap, and stays sane and open to wonder by walking in Angkor Park.

    Angkor Coronavirus Diaries, Part I

    The descendants of Angkor

    I.

    They keep saying, in the papers,
    that Angkor is empty; but
    it is only empty of tourists.

    It is inhabited by Cambodians, as it 
    has always been. In fact, without
    the lumbering buses, the rows of
    tuk tuks, the crowds of visitors,
    Angkor feels reclaimed. There
    are families and lovers picnicking 
    by the 12thcentury moats in the hot 
    afternoons, wading in Sras Srang 
    reservoir with their trousers rolled 
    up, fishing off the sandstone steps. 
    City folk cycle on every road and forest 
    path, obsess over the troops of long-tailed
    macaques, and go up on their toes to pick
    fruit like the Javan plum. Brave young men 
    play football, gleaming with sweat.

    It’s quieter, yes, and we who visit now are not 
    quite like the foreign tourists or the ancient ones. 
    Our modes of conveyance and our technologies
    of communication have changed, but
    the descendants of Angkor are still here—
    walking, feasting and worshipping
    underneath their sacred trees.

    II.

    I was on the south wall of Angkor Thom early
    one morning when I heard the singing. He
    was in the moat below me, a trap over one bare 
    shoulder, a cast net slung over the other, and he
    called out to me and I answered back, and he
    said there were no guests for the boats, so he was fishing. 
    I said I lived in the city and walked on, leaving
    behind a boatman wading in still clear water up to 
    his chest, singing an ancient love song.


    Angkor Coronavirus Diaries, Part II

    When death brushes closely by 

    I.

    We were coming back from the temples at dusk,
    a wet sandy dog lying at our feet, and our tuk tuk 
    swung around a corner and there was a woman 
    lying on the side of the road with two men 
    standing over her.

    We pulled over by a roadside fruit stand,
    I found my latex gloves and went to see 
    if I could offer assistance. She was conscious
    when I arrived, the others lifting her to 
    her feet. They helped her limp across the 
    road to the fruit stand as I quizzed her 
    about the nature of her injuries. Nothing 
    was broken, she insisted, and she longed for 
    Tiger Balm. So I got her some, and rubbed it 
    gently onto her swelling upper arm. There was 
    red dirt ground into the side and back of her pretty 
    gauze blouse, which she refused to let me rip
    open to inspect her arm. There was dirt in her dark 
    hair, and she was talking in that 
    scattered startled way 
    one does when death has brushed closely by. 

    The car’s tire struck her motorbike. She toppled off 
    to the side of the road rather than rolling under the 
    wheels. The car, as is customary in Cambodia, was 
    long gone. The other men were strangers like me, 
    stopping to lift a fallen woman out of the way of more
    danger. She hadn’t worn a helmet, she said, because 
    she wasn’t going far from home. She had five children, 
    she owed $10,000 to a microfinance institution, what 
    would have happened to all of them, 
    had she died that afternoon?There was no lump forming on her head, only the injured leg and arm from where the motorbike 
    landed on top of her body after the collision. 
    She was lucky. So I left her there with my red 
    Chinese balm, the vendors talking her back to 
    calmness, and I remembered that death can wait 
    anywhere—not just in the spiked proteins of 
    this new coronavirus, but just there, in the shadow
    of the evening trees, around the corner, around the 
    bend, just down the road between the market and 
    your small wooden home.

    II.

    Last Saturday, we stepped through the ruined sandstone 
    pillars of an Angkorian bridge to see the river and stopped short. 
    Far below us, two young women lay side by side in the water,
    fully clothed, their bodies arranged upon small boulders. 
    It was an eerie tableau. Their purses and shoes lay on the 
    far bank, the clear water flowed shallowly over their feet 
    and jean-clad legs, their faces were pillowed on stones, limbs 
    tucked beneath them. They were still as death.

    My companion thought she saw one’s chest rise and fall, but 
    I saw nothing, nothing but the gentle tug of the river on 
    their clothes, the odd curve of one bare foot propped against 
    a stone, and we could not leave them there, unsure of their fate,
    so I climbed down the bank towards them, and still they remained 
    unmoving, until I was only a meter away and could no longer bear 
    the silence and called out, Sister! And one girl’s eyes fluttered 
    open, startled, surprised, and she declared them both alive and 
    well, simply two young women asleep in a shaded bend 
    of the river three hours before noon. We left them there,
    hearts pounding.

  • Lockdown – Canberra style

    Lockdown – Canberra style

    Philip Coggan shares a ‘lockdown day’ in Australia’s national capital.

    Today is . . ?
    I forget. It’s Tuesday, I’m sure of that. But I forget what day it is in the count of lockdown days. 

    This is how I spent my day:

    I ring my friend Gary. He lost his wife last year, but it was long-expected and he’s coping well. We’ve been meeting for coffee on the first day of each month but that’s on hold. He tells me he spent yesterday watching Netflix. He recommends Detectorists. ‘Understated British humour‘, he says.

    I go to Molto Italian restaurant, across the toy lake where I live. I like Molto, I like Italian. It’s doing take-aways only. All the restaurants are doing take-aways only. I ask Carlo how’s business. Business is ‘ratso’, he says. A man goes past carrying a glass of red wine. ‘That’s Pete’, says Carlo, ‘he goes past every lunchtime, with a glass of red wine. Don’t like to ask why’.

    The day is sunny and windless and there’s alot of people around – people walking dogs, people in cycling gear riding new bicycles, dads with small children, men of a certain age in sleeveless puffer jackets and flat tweed caps, groups of women of an uncertain age out for coffee in takeaway cups. 

    I go to the supermarket to buy marmalade. There’s a homeless man begging outside in the sun, where it’s warm. He has a hat in front of him with lots of coins in it. I ask him if he’s alright, he looks unwell. Not corona unwell, but about to pass out from fatigue and/or lack of food unwell. 

    Yeah.

    What’s it like?

    Cold at night.

    Where (I really shouldn’t be getting into this conversation) do you stay nights?

    Mumble. The guy talks like he has a mouth full of cotton wool. I’ll pass on that one.

    Are people being more generous?

    No. They’re tight.

    Right.

    Right.

    Back home I phone Greg, a friend in Sydney; he was in the middle of completing the purchase of a new house when the hammer fell. I ask him for news.

    ‘News is good and a friend from Melbourne is coming up to help with the move’, he says. 

    Melbourne? The rule in New South Wales is that you can’t travel more than 50km from your home without good reason. I fear that somewhere north of the border a New South Welsh patrol car will pull my Victorian-plated friend over and ask him what the problem is, and I doubt that helping a friend move house counts. But I don’t feel it’s my place to mention this. 

    I watch the news. There’s been one more coronavirus death in Australia, bringing the total to 97. Here in Canberra we have one active case. Prime Minister Morrison offers us all his congratulations. Attention is now on getting Australians back to work. His personal popularity currently stands at 70%; pretty good for a man resembling a used car salesman. 

    And so to bed. Tomorrow, as the man says, is another day.