Day: November 11, 2021

  • East of Heaven

    East of Heaven

    Tom Vater

    The town was covered in reddish dust. A nickel mine operated near-by and everyone worked there. Thanks to the rain, the dust clung to everything. Sam and I had been travelling south from the Palawan capital Puerto Princesa for several days, on a series of Jeepneys, the Philippines’ all-purpose pubic transport vehicles. Sometimes we got seats and ate driving rain through the open slats of the passenger section. When the sun was out, we clung to the roof, along with bound chicken and pigs and ate dust. At a stop half-way down the island, a piglet in a rough rice sack made a valiant break for freedom and hurled itself along the hot tarmac down the road we’d just traveled, panicking, leaving a trail of shit and laughter from its owners behind. They caught the poor creature soon enough. There was no escape. There was no freedom. Not for pigs anyway. 

    We’d been sitting in front of the town’s all-purpose kiosk for three days. Every now and then I bought a smoke, stood under the kiosk’s awning to make sure it wouldn’t soak and inhaled furiously. The cigarettes were called Hope. A piece of rope smoldered by the kiosk’s counter all day. That’s where I got a light. And a dirty look from the old crone who ran the place. Behind the kiosk, the town stretched away into red mud. A couple of disintegrating wooden warehouses populated by armies of rats sold the basics – rice, noodles, alcohol, and bullets leant into the daily deluge. Beyond these exhausted malls, a couple of hundred shacks and a handful of ugly concrete buildings made up the rest of the town. We slept in one of the concrete buildings which rented four rooms, mostly by the hour, above a karaoke bar. The nickel mine lay beyond a barbwire gate just outside of town, guarded by men wearing Carrera sunglasses and carrying pump action shotguns. 

    No one was happy here, and no one was ever going to leave. Except for us. That’s why we were so popular. 

    Once in a while I ambled down to what passed for the jetty, a long line of loose planks stretching across the placid water of the small bay that the town lay in. Vultures perched on the rotting posts that held the jetty together, plumage dripping. A couple of catamarans, their wings skeletal and fragile on the dark green water, lay tied to the posts. There was no one on board. Beyond, black clouds rumbled silently across the angry gun metal sky. The coconut trees on a couple of small isles a mile or so out to sea bent in the rain, threatening to fly off into the churning sea beyond.

    The boat to Balabac, the one we wanted to be on, should have left a couple of days earlier, but the rain had been too strong. There was a storm out there lashing the ocean like a devil. This is what Mr. Gabunilas was telling me. Mr. Gabunilas lived on Balabac, the the Philippines’ most remote, most southern island, a nest of outlaws allegedly, that young, entitled adventurers with too much time on their hands needed to visit. He was about sixty, a skinny man with fading Christian tattoos on his arms, a legacy of his years fighting with the Americans against the Japanese in WWII. Mr. Gabunilas was partial to a bit of hope himself, and so we periodically stood next to each other under the kiosk’s awning, smoking, while he would give me an update on the lack of updates. 

    It was that time of day and I strolled from our room to the kiosk through light drizzle and purchased the day’s first increment of Hope. The old woman scowled when I pulled the rope to my smoke. Mr. Gabunilas was next to me before I could take a drag. I nodded to the woman for another Hope, but he waved me off, his eyes on fire. 

    “You’re happy to leave, no, Boss?”

    I nodded carefully. Everyone called foreigners Boss around here, apparently in reference to Bruce Springsteen. Male foreigners. 

    “Sure, happy to leave, we’ve enjoyed all the sights in town.”

    Mr. Gabunilas grabbed the cigarette off the old crone, lit up and left, waving at me emphatically. I hadn’t seen anyone here with this much energy. 

    “Today, we go. The boat will go. We will leave,” he shouted and disappeared behind the malls. 

    An hour later, the boat captain and his crew showed up. They wore grim expressions as they passed us and began to load one of the catamarans with petrol, ice boxes and plastic sacks of instant noodles. A small crowd gathered by the jetty, half hidden under garish umbrellas. The vultures were nervous, their pink necks quivering like something that was about to die. The sky looked the same as it had for days, wet and angry. 

    Mr. Gabunilas arrived, a tattered rucksack slung across a shoulder, eyes alight as if he’d experienced a religious epiphany. He guided us down the rickety jetty with a great show deference and even helped load our bags onto the boat. The small crowd, who turned out to be, like Mr. Gabunilas, from Balabac, followed us with visible trepidation. Fifteen minutes later, we set off towards a darkening sky, southwards, the catamaran almost loaded to capacity.

    We skirted the bay and headed off the Palawan coast into the South China Sea. The town and with it, its torpor, quickly faded into the moist afternoon gloom. Soon the waves rose and there was nothing but water around us. A couple of sea gulls that accompanied us turned and headed back the way we’d come. The boat’s engine roared. We harked on across ever larger troughs, ravines and summits of water. The night came quickly and we sat in almost complete darkness, under a single bulb fastened to a leaky stretch of tarpaulin above our heads. It rained hard enough to knock out flying fish. Black water rushed at us from all directions. The catamaran heaved. It creaked. The passengers began to pray. 

    I turned to Mr. Gabunilas. 

    “Do you often travel like this?”

    His face was drawn and pale. He shook his head emphatically.

    “So why did the boat head out tonight, if the weather was still bad?” Sam shouted at the old man to make herself heard. 

    The roar of a full-blown storm lashed the catamaran and everyone onboard with fury. A couple of children behind us started crying. The captain switched off the engine. We were adrift. 

    Mr. Gabunilas shook his head sadly.

    “You said you wanted to go, right, Boss? I told the captain the foreigners want to go. He looked at the sky, but he also needs to make money. You know the storm will pass, don’t you? It will pass, if a foreigner decides to travel on this boat, right? We all trust you, that you make the right decision, right?”

    His concern gave way to hope then and he smiled at us beatifically, wiping rivulets of water and spray from his face, “With foreigners on board, we will reach our destination, God willing.”

    ***

    ©Tom Vater – Asia based writer, publisher & editor.

    www.clippings.me/tomvater

    www.tomvater.com

    https://th.linkedin.com/pub/tom-vater/38/520/ba0
  • Being Here, Now

    Being Here, Now

    Martin Bradley

    Metta Metta Metta

    Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu

    Phenomenal city, Angkor, Cambodia, clutches grateful stationary traveller to gracious bosom. Held tightly, succoured, kept safe from all harm, pandemonium, in nowness past/future constituting irrelevancies.

    Majestic ancient city, Angkor, its Wats preside, city of peace, saffron monks, carved stone, apsara angels, sunrises, tangled roots man and nature.

    Before day rush dawn whispers meditavely.

    Bird murmuring orange blue morning, bamboo stem silhouettes sway momentarily. Cloud wisps don pink cloaks against eggshell blue. Wat Damnak dawn chants spreading Metta, Karma, Dharma recollections.

    Gentle gamelan vibrates through freshly diurnal blue skies. Occasional white clouds wander tropics overseeing day’s arrangements. Sun incandescently smiles.

    Now stationary traveller, behatted, promenades past sweet jasmine, frangipani, grilled bananas, street coffee perfuming air, smiles, slight bow greets alleyway family opposite Hospital for Children, offspring in hammock, mother prepares boiled rice, samlor soup, prahoc, moves aside, traveller passes. Solitary save for whispering birds, secret, coy, Khmer children smile. Stationary traveller ventures through once laughter-ridden alleyways spread between bustling Samdech Tep Vong Street, Wat Preah Prohm Rath, The Passage, Covid global sadness silent closed or closing, torn A4 rent, sale, contact……vacant for canine dreams. 

    Alleys upon alleys once people bright, vendors, toe nibbling fish tanks, lanes become ghost alleys, remembrances of Bayon, Angkor Wat,Tonle Sap Lake visiting hipsters, students, new agers, families, lovers playing at raiding of tombs, shapely in shorts, leather walking boots apsara posing, painting red piano, yellow submarine, purple mango, blue pumpkin. Smile not reaching eyes. Selfie taking ego fanning charity acolytes pumped with goodness not Covid returning.

    Out, Street 9, chilli salted cockle vendors, hot grilled chive cakes sellers, Psa Chas bound, tuk tuk, motor cyclist, cyclist avoiding, secretive market bursting forth fragrant essences, kaffir lime, lemon grass, fish wort, coriander. Bright fish eyes watch dimmed candle lit narrow aisles, porcine snouts, bovine tails, feet, livers, hearts of chickens, purple octopus. Khmer purveyors, straw heat wearing sun wrinkled faces project welcoming smiles, marble eyes bright. Kuy teav noodles, pork broth, beef slices, deep-fried garlic,herbs, breakfast soup lost in translation. 

    Slim Khmer vegetable selling angel ever smiles with eyes, profers king oyster mushroom, enoki, galangal, turmeric, customer pulls garlic, ginger, carrots into metal pan, extracts fresh flat rice noodle into dish, pays, leaves for plastic bag of one kilo rice.

    Steung Siem Reap, leaf strewn, azure sky reflecting bridges watching anglers. Scoopy processions carrying brief reflections of damsels, long black hair, faces soft blue paper masked, travelling over bridges, beyond to families, college, work, secrets and lovers.

    Sun kissed bright mornings merge into golden orb drenched drying days, bringing breeze, bamboo taps on kitchen mosquito screen, inescapable warmth. In white painted rooms, browning ceiling fans slice air caressing hirsute arms, scent of Jasmine joss. Sun browned white fingers type on hard black plastic keyboards, pause, reach for frosty glass ginger water. Fingers drip welcome condensation cool. 

    Khmer pasts, Khmer futures begat times of cleansing, thunderously saturating equatorial rain. Night streets glisten iridescently proudly revealing momentary clarity, splendour. Tu tuk drivers press through rain onslaught. Tourists too few to deny.

    Cooler Krousar (family) Café evening encountering International School English teacher nest, stunning ebony type-dancer, brown eyes, hair recalling Henrix. Siem Reap haven for strong North American females, Irish Catholics, Metta bums replacing Majid for Wat. Night walk return, intermediate neon reveals pot holes, Street 27 sleeping dogs left to lay, grilled fish scents, barbecue spiced meat, red ants. This night Khmer star abundant skies grace stationary traveller with cosmic splendour.

    Metta Metta Metta

    Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu

  • The Two Suns

    The Two Suns

    Joss McDonald

    Winds are blowing from the north-east today. The small seventy-seater plane sways from side to side as it descends towards the tiny runway. A tarmac so small, I contemplate whether the plane could be whisked right past the end and into the sea that borders it. 

    The plane lands safely. 

    I unclench my hands from around the armrests, unbuckle my seat belt, and gather my belongings. Outside, an auto-rickshaw awaits to take me to the jetty. Thirty minutes later we arrive, albeit minus an actual jetty —

    I follow my driver as we weave past some dogs, through what appears to be somebody’s yard. The dogs bark. They seem worried I’ll be a threat to their loot of garbage strewn around the dirt. 

    We arrive at the water’s edge where a longboat is waiting to carry me to my destination. A boy takes my carry-on suitcase. It turns out he will also be the captain. I gingerly climb into the boat. I am his sole passenger. Packed around me is the clean linen we stopped to collect at a laundromat on the way here. 

    Thankfully, the tempered wind has lessened. We head across the peninsula. The boat rocks back and forth- the top of the sides almost kissing the water more than once. As we enter the bay, the ocean becomes tranquil. Before me a white beach, dotted with palm trees, glitters in the sun. Secluded behind that is where I’ll be sojourning. 

    The journey has taken an hour. When the longboat pulls close to shore, I gather up my skirt, ready to be christened by the shimmering blue sea. Then, stepping onto the beach, the sand molds itself around my feet. It will become my shoes for the next few days.

    Paradise.

    I arrive at lunchtime. A table is spread with local cuisine. Instead, I’m drawn to the scenery that captivates and encompasses me. I look outwards, peeking through the trees, at my view of sparkling turquoise. Gazing to my left, a longboat sits perfectly framed between two palms. The waves, softly lapping a few meters in front, are hypnotic.

    Having only recently recovered from Dengue, travel and the bumpy flight have taken its toll on my body. The serene beauty of this location soothes me though. It is the balm I didn’t know I needed. I could sit here forever in this reverie.

    Day turns to evening. On the beach I watch the sunset. The sun burns crimson, it’s reflection seared across the water. A strip of water looks like it could be on fire. -A yellow flame that fans out to orange, fringed with red edges. Slowly, the sun lowers itself behind a mountain. 

    Winter monsoon will last another month. The heat of next season hasn’t begun to build yet, so the night air is cool. I put on a jumper to sit in the open-air restaurant. After dinner and wine, I head to bed. The pillows are like cumulus clouds that lull me to sleep.

    My alarm chimes to wake for sunrise. I climb out of bed, step out of my room and onto the balcony. Over the bay, the sun is competing with itself, trying to eclipse last evening. A hint of magenta is everywhere I look- the sky, the beach, the ocean. Fishing boats’ motors are humming at shore. The rise of the sun illuminates the oxcart that is arriving to carry away a night’s taking.

    Soon the sun is fully up.

    I float a few feet back to bed. This 18 degree morning is frigid now that I’ve become climatized to living here in South-East Asia. I swaddle myself in my duvet and reflect on what I have beheld. I smile and I declare sunrise the winner of the two suns. What I have witnessed was not a dream. For I have been blessed to hold court here with both.

  • THE KINGDOM

    THE KINGDOM

    Nick Marx

    “Go lightly on your journey. Leave no footprints in the sand.

    The path that you are treading is on someone else’s land.

    There’s no problem with your presence. Glad to have you passing through.

    Please take comfort on your journey, and I’m sure you’ll love the view.

    Take nourishment and shelter, but use only what you need,

    Do be gentle with the creatures and don’t fell too many trees.

    There is all that you could want here, on the land, in woods and streams,

    But be careful on your travels, it’s more fragile than it seems.

    There are many gone before you who have caused no small distress,

    Though it’s someone else’s property they’ve left a fearful mess. 

    The damage that they do could maybe soon obscure the sun – 

    And I’ve heard the birds and beasts are now all leaving one by one.

    It isn’t theirs to vandalise – nor yours – so please take care

    On your journey through a property so plentiful and fair.

    You ask me where you travel, and the name we give this land?

    We know it as “The Earth”. It’s all we have, please understand.

    Now you want to know the Landlords, those you feel you ought to warn?

    We all journey through The Kingdom of the Young Ones Not Yet Born.”

  • MY WORD WITH GOD

    MY WORD WITH GOD

    Nick Marx

     And now as I aspire to stroll about Your Globe once more,

    Deliberate and slow, picked myself back up off the floor,

    Now I’ve lost so much of value for what seems a pointless plan,

     I now hope that I’ve become an infinitely wiser man.

    I’ve been punished for a crime I saw no choice but to commit,

    The penalty severe, no other option but submit,

    And now I know although my life may never be the same,

    And also know that some might say I’ve just myself to blame,

    I’m clear, despite events, there’s not a chance I’ll ever change

    As I travel down a path that is to me a little strange.

     I still rage at the injustice dealt lives other than my own,

    My fury aimed at deeds I know the gods will not condone.

    And now finally I see that there’s another side to pain,

    And hope You’ll not request I go through similar again,

    When next I seek assistance, and before You heed my plea,

    I ask You’ll care for other beings needing help far more than me.

    Now that You’ve created man, Your vagabond, Your sick buffoon,

    Only creature in the Universe so sadly out of tune.

    Increasing his own numbers, desecrating all he needs,

    The solution to his problems – create more mouths he cannot feed.

    Now his thoughtless self-obsession is so total and complete,

    Matched only by his all-consuming cruelty and conceit,

    As he causes constant mayhem, yet still asks for a reprieve –

    Not a coat of many colours, his own straight-jacket he weaves – 

    As he prepares one last assault upon this green and vibrant World,

    With his hands around his weapons of destruction tightly curled….

    From every creature on the land and in the air or in the seas,

    From antelope and anteater to wasps and bumble bees,

    From moth and fragile butterfly to porpoises and whales,

    From majestic golden eagles to partridges and quails,

    The next time that you hear his cries, to “Save him if You can!” 

    Please tend these other creatures before You next look after man.

    Now I’m re-entering this World from an eternity of rain,

    And now factors of importance come to focus once again,

    And now we’re absolutely certain we’re the only ones to feel,

     So determined that our self-inflicted scratches You should heal,

    And now our ears no longer listen as through sightless orbs we peer

    Along a road so straight and true, down which we’re far too blind to steer,

    I ask, “Is man the potentate or just some crazy loon?”

    And am I but one more as I emerge from my cocoon?

     From every fin and every feather to each tiny tuft of fur,

    From every terrifying roar to soft contented purr,

    From gently waving tentacle to shiny, silver scale,

    From every iridescent wing to long prehensile tail,

    From fang and bill and mandible to canine tooth and claw,

    From trunk, and horn to cloven hoof or softly padding paw,

    When next you hear the pleas, both from myself and other men,

    Before You see to our abrasions ….. care for them.

  • Torrential

    Torrential

    Sam Plummer

    Torrential, sun-streaked

    Drawing across the paddies like a veil

    Buckling banana leaves and awnings.

    Kaleidoscopic pagoda roofs cascade into lily ponds

    Nourishing paddies, revitalizing rivers.

    Life-giving and eternal.

    Torrential, lightning-blitzed

    Smothering the city like a shroud

    Scattering motorbikes and lives.

    Thundering off veranda roofs to shatter the neon reflections

    Flushing sewage, plastic and dreams.

    Dark and ominous.

    Torrential.

    The monsoon tests our lives.

    Washing our bastions downstream

    to be reclaimed by culture

    reclaimed by nature.

    It’s torrential outside

    sisyphean and miserable. 

    I shouldn’t be alone.

    I should be with family, friends

    comfort and cheer

    to deflect the hopelessness

    of building monuments in foreign lands.

    Instead, a pen and a bottle of whisky.

    Who else can save their souls? Save mine?

  • A Smiling Idiot in an Indonesian Village

    A Smiling Idiot in an Indonesian Village

    JR Sinclair

    I had never been completely on my own, relying entirely upon myself, until I travelled overseas in my early twenties. Being alone among people I did not know, while also realizing that no one knew exactly where I was, gave me a euphoric sense of freedom. I was keenly aware of the feeling because it was so intense that at times I wondered if I might not be going a little bit crazy: I would catch myself with a silly grin on my face, not a look of joie de vivre, but unadulterated joy like the smiles of Evangelical Christians who have clearly been provided with all the answers, and are so ecstatic about the lack of uncertainly in life, that they use facial expression to share this feeling with the entire world. 

    This monstrous happiness would usually coincide with me being not entirely certain where I was, but not lost, because I was exactly where I wanted to be. To onlookers I must have appeared like just another stoned backpacker, but I was as straight as a die, just thrilled by the process of breaking a mould that no longer quite fitted.

    While in the throes of my newfound freedom, I would play this little game when I arrived in a new town. I would ask myself, ‘What kind of person will I be today?’

    To go along with my chosen personality—be that an introvert, an extrovert, or whatever took my fancy—sometimes I even adopted a new name, but that became complicated when I met people I wanted to stay in contact with. To avoid the embarrassment of explaining to those people why I was not who I said I was, my name changing became confined to my first and middle names: some days I was John, some days I was Ross, and  occasionally I was even John Ross.

    Such feelings of freedom reached their zenith one morning when I was on a local bus travelling between two provincial towns in Central Sulawesi. I was looking out the window at what seemed like the middle of nowhere when all of a sudden I shouted, ‘Stop!’

    The people on the bus seemed surprised and somewhat bemused that I would want to stop in such a place; there were no houses or people anywhere in sight. The bus driver kept asking me if I was sure I wanted to get off.

    Up until that point in my life, a rural road in Central Sulawesi was the most out-of-the-way place I had ever been. 

    After the bus roared off and the dust settled over a natural stillness, I noticed a small track on the uphill side of the road. The track was clearly not suitable for larger vehicles, but there were signs that motorbikes and oxcarts used it, so I figured it must lead somewhere. It was a dirt track with rough fields on either side, where jagged tree stumps and smouldering piles of wood were interspersed with recently planted cassava stems. 

    I started walking up the track and ended up following it for several days.  

    Later that afternoon, and in the afternoons that followed, when I came across a village at a time that seemed like a sensible hour to stop, I asked for the Village Head. After a short negotiation to agree on a price, the Village Head took me to one of the villages houses where I stayed the night. 

    The houses were simple 1-2 roomed dwellings with iron roofs, walls and floors made from rough-hewn planks, with the only modern amenity being light from a single Butterfly lantern hung in the centre of the main room. Food was cooked on wood-fired stoves in a separate building, where the women worked while the men talked.

    The evening meal consisted of rice and vegetables with a little meat. On my first night, a single tin of curried chicken was opened and placed beside a bowl of rice in front of me. It was such a small tin, and there were so many people in the room, it was almost impossible to take only my fair share. 

    Evenings involved sitting on the porch with the family exchanging more smiles than words, except with the old people, who assumed I understood everything they said and proceeded with long one-sided conversations.

    One Village Head seemed particularly pleased to meet me. If the whole experience had not seemed so otherworldly, his roguish grin and humour-filled eyes would have been sufficient warning that he was up to something.

     We sat on a mat together in stilted conversation while his wife served us cups of tea and sickly-sweet cakes.

    Not long after my new friend established I was Christian—if I could communicate it I would say ‘raised a Christian’ and let people assume what they would—another man joined us on the mat with a young woman I assumed to be his daughter. 

    I sat and nodded and smiled not understanding 99% of what was being said, and certainly not understanding anything about what was happening. It was not until the third father and daughter, in a procession of fathers and daughters, that I began to suspect that these young women were being presented to me as prospective brides. 

    I could pick up the odd word in the sentences of the men; their daughters did not say a word. My suspicions were further raised when a sentence directed at me, with accompanying gestures directed at the young woman, had a word I recognised. 

    The word I recognised was, ‘love’.  

    With patched-together phases from my dog-eared phrasebook, I confirm my worst suspicions that I was indeed an eligible bachelor. 

    I must have seemed uncomfortable, yet the men could hardly contain their pleasure at the proceedings. The young women seemed less pleased by the goings-on as they flushed red with either embarrassment or anger.  

    The last of the young woman to sit on the mat—I shut the occasion down by lying about my marital status—was the only one to look at me and she studied me intently. When we made eye contact, she did not seem entirely repulsed. I wondered if she was sizing me up as an option to escape from a place where women were offered up to strangers. But then, that was possibly not what was happening at all, and I may have completely misinterpreted the entire situation. 

    It would not be the last time. 

    In every village I visited along that track I was asked my religion. 

    Muslim villages were no less friendly, but in them I did not seem to be considered an eligible bachelor.

    (The Muslim villagers were part of a grand scheme called Transmigration designed to ease the population pressure in far-off Java. Transported to remote often marginal frontier places, families were given land and supplies and left to eke out a living as best they could. The Christian villagers were rural poor from Sulawesi pushing into the forest in search of a better life. I planned to return to the area to work with a local conservation group, but the project was scrapped due to an outbreak of communal violence: the Christian and Muslim villages had subjected each other to the most horrific attacks. At the time I was first there, I would not have believed something so gruesome was possible. By the time I heard the stories, I had spent several years in Papua New Guinean. I had seen there the incredible potential for violence between neighbouring villages of different cultures that, to an ignorant outsider, appeared very similar, but in their reality share little in common other than deep-rooted mistrust and animosity)

    While I sat and drank sweet tea in the mornings before heading back out on the track, I would watch the men of the village heading out into the forest with chainsaws and air rifles. Under the Suharto dictatorship at the time, it was illegal to own firearms, so Indonesians made ingenious homemade air rifles; not the slug guns and bb guns of my childhood, but weapons capable of bringing down large birds, monkeys, and even small game. 

    I saw birds and lots of butterflies, and occasionally I heard a group of monkeys in the distance, but my walk was not the wildlife experience you might expect when so close to tropical rainforest. 

    The track I followed mostly skirted the edge of the forest, and walking along it was the first time I encountered tropical rainforest rapidly retreating to the sound of chainsaws and the smell of burning wood.  These were sensations I would experience repeatedly in the years that followed, and ones I have spent the last 30 years trying to stop, at least at the industrial scale. 

    The track eventually landed me back on another road—or it might have been the same one I had left several days earlier—where I hailed a passing bus, that took this smiling idiot, further along the road…